Awaken the giant in me

I remember not too long ago, a friend of mine told me about a book and how the book had change her life. She also told me a life changing experience. That time I thought, how ironic. Its not that I don't believe in such book, but is the person's who told me her experience. Now, to think back, i feel ashame to have such thought on her. No people should judge others except his/her own. Looking back at my own life, it is not so great either. Sometimes, I must say I makes my life looks excited, but the truth I feel like i have no control of my life. I feel like I am on a roller coster ride. And when I am in the middle of this, it suddenly hit me, I have no more & 'giant' in me. I have no more passion in life. I don't think about the future anymore, no 5 years plan, no more target to achieve. I suddenly realise where the Adriana that I know? The one full with fire, passion & motivation drive? I feel like I am going backward! I am turning myself into the young naive Adriana when I used to work in Parlo Tours. All I know is to depend on him. I am holding the edge of my life. I am rethinking over. What will happen when he is not there for me? I always walk down the memory lane of my past success. Why so? Is it because there is no glory days now? I am dangerously standing at the edge of the fallen. What should I do to re-awake the giant in me?

Everytime I feel like we are doing alright, it will take turn to bad. I woder when are we going to the next level? or am I always going to be in this level? Why other people got their chance, but not me? Do you think I am not ready yet? What should I do?

Renewed in the name of Lord

Today has been a busy day. I only have 1 week left before I go for my Europe trip. It a bitter sweet experience preparing for my long awaited trip. It seems not real but I know when the days go by, it will be real somehow. I recall my last trip to KLIA, even though I am in the boarding area, I could not step to the plane as my purpose there was to attend Bvlgari launch. I recall feeling excited that a few weeks later; I’ll be going to Europe, the place that I dreamt most of the time. But this is not a dream. This is reality. All excitement overcomes me when I think about this journey. But the anxiety took another part of me. The feeling of uncertainty and scared, scared of not knowing what will happen there and when the thought of going UK alone and what would I do there, I need to go there alone. I just pray to God to calm me down. I believe in Him as I know he will take care of me in every step that I take. Today, I did a very good thing for myself. I am proud and happy that I did it. I feel free and I can believe again. As one of my friend mention the other day, I would like to collect prayer petition and help others by praying their petition up to the Lord. Every church that I go, I will pray 3 petitions. Helping others is how I want to improve my life there. I feel renewed and I am blessed with good health and with good people around me. I am blessed that I could go to Europe in such a young age. Thank you Lord for blessing me with so many things in life, now I would like to forward my blessing by collecting petition and pray for those who need praying.

Xoxo

Adriana

Appreciate things in life

Today is the last day of the 5 days holiday that I have. This holiday has been wonderful! It makes me feel that the people surround you, friends that you have surround you, and you know which one is the friend that will be there for you when you need them the most. This year celebration has been different from last year, although both years, I did not get to celebrate with my honey bunny, but it has been an eye opener for me. I didn’t expect much from my friends, but they surprised me! They took time out to have a quiet chill out time with me, have dinner and buy me presents as well! We talk for hours, and we grow closer. Thank you all for making my 26^th birthday a successful one.

Today however the last day of the holiday, its best to take time off from the hectic schedule from the past few days and to reflect and to think what has been going on. Now while listening to the sweet melody of Yiruma songs, things has been great from the past few weeks even though there’s minor hiccup here and there, but I did enjoy the past 2 weeks. Looking forward to the next 2 weeks, it’s going to be a busy one, with only 2 weeks more before I go to Budapest. List of things to do has been written out, progress so far so good. I can’t believe I am leaving Malaysia for 4 months! This trip has given me a mixed of excitement and also uncertainty. Excitement – I got to travel to Europe and to travel together with my honey bunny! Europe is my dream place and the best part is I got to go to England, the place I wanted to go for long long time! Uncertainty – I have never been away from Malaysia for such a long time and not across the world! Furthermore, I do not know how it feels when other people are paying for all your expenses.

While I am there, I plan to take up creative writing course. I want to take up this course for long time already, but it has not been fulfilled so far. Since I’ll be staying in England or other non-schengen area for at least 1 month, why not utilize this time to take up course that I would like to take up for quite some time. Now I am not sure how the arrangement should go, either to take up student visa which unable me to work there or use my existing travel visa to study. How long does it take to apply student visa? Which country I would like to stay in, England, Scotland or Ireland? More research needs to be done.

Tomorrow is another working day. I wish I could have a longer holiday. But it’s ok, I know after this holiday I am going to have 4 months holiday. Time to countdown my Europe trip!

Xoxo

Adriana

A news that give me a new life and shattered my dream

What happen when your dream is taken away from you? Initially when I heard the news I was surprise but delighted. My heart skips a beat. I thought this is it! I am going to get married. Enthusiasm rush all over my body, I thought my time is here! I imagine myself dwelling over church wedding, wedding gown that I am going to wear. The joy and proud looks from my parents, relatives and friends are there to support us. I could not contain my smile. It feels like I am reading a novel! But this is going to be my fairy tale! I could not imagine my disappointment when I heard the news that we are not going to get married just yet. I could not contain my disappointment and feel so embarrass to put myself in this situation. Why should I put so high hope when there is no concrete conversation on this? I mean, I should have known! After all, he has yet to propose. I keep on blaming myself for that. This whole thing means the world to me. This is the moment that I have been waiting. I finally stop people from asking me “when are you getting married?” I am just so sick of that question. Day by day, family members, friends asking me this question and all I could answer are not yet. People keep on telling me especially family members on how should I proceed with my future. I get annoyed sometimes. I feel like telling them, “Look, is not me who do not want to get married! But I am not the guy who proposed!” I wanted to get married too! I wanted to start family, to have kids. But I have no choice but to keep quiet and wait. If you ask me, how long you need to wait, I don’t know! And stop asking me. I could not share my pain with anybody else, not even with the person I love the most. I have told him several times, I do not want him to think that I am rushing him. I also do not want him to marry me just because I am rushing him, it is just not right. All I can do is suffer in silence.

Things do not help when my dad test result does not improve. The mental tortures worsen. This is not supposed to be like this. I wanted my wedding to be the best, to be the happiest moment of my life and this does not look anything like that. I wanted to enjoy everything that I had now and embrace the moment where he asked my hand on marriage. Worries overcome me every time. My dream wedding is to walk down the aisle with my dad on my side, he will give me away. As much as I wanted to have this dream wedding, I am worried that by then, my dad is not going to be with me anymore. Just recently, dad’s doctor had given up on him. I was shock to hear that, he mention that my dad could not be cured. He also had decided to accept Christ and had agreed to be Baptist. Praise the Lord. I have contacted Fr. Paulino to make special arrangement with him. He needs to get back to me on this. All I can do now is to pray to Lord that he will be with us longer. Recently when he came back, he had spoken to me about me & my mom relationship. I have agreed to take up his advice to me put the past behind us and move forward. He has a great heart. He always has our best interest in his mind.

I just want to be strong do not break down in any circumstances. If he can protect all of us, I could battle this too. I do not want this matter to ruin my future big day. I have read some of the magazines that those women have been waiting for so long for the big day and finally when it comes; it feels like “finally” or “at least”. I do not want this feeling to happen to me. I want to be happy and special. I know every time I ruin surprises, this is the greatest surprise that had really ruined me. I always remember, there are only 2 surprises that I love the most so far, first is for him to be my boyfriend and second surprises is my birthday present.

The disappointment will go off hopefully. I just need time to recover from this mess. So for the time being, I do not want to hear any question about married. It is not fun to have 1 day of full happiness and the other day of sorrow.

Xoxo

Adriana

Lesson to be learned

Today I have been talking to a person I respect the most. I have learn lessons and inside stories on what is going on the other person's life. When I talked to her, I know she feels frustrated over what is going on with her son and she could not do anything to help. Neither does she has the power to say it out loud as fearing the hurt in the person around her. She has been straggling over an issue with the his wife. Not knowing the matter, makes the situation worst. Listening to her stories, I can feel that the sadness in her eyes has nearly turn into tears. Hearing her said that her son is unfairly treated numerous times, makes it difficult for her. This has been going on for quite sometime, and there are no improvement.

I am surprise how big difference in personality with the person in the family. I recall each members personality. The one that i know is strong, outspoken, know how to take charge and know what he is doing. He is lovely gentleman. I am surprise to hear that other member are bullied by their wife. I have read these stories on the books or magazines, but never encounter a real life stories. I know my life would not be like that or should I say never. I do not wish to be like that too. I wanted to be a lovely lady with a gentle and big heart who protects anything that will harm her family. It is hard to see that you are not fit into the new family you are going into. I wish the wife will change one day for the best interest of everybody and also herself.

I have learn to put unhappy things in the past and start over. Baby steps is all it takes to build up the broken bridges. Lets look forward for a happy and fulfilling life. For sure, I would not want to add anything into her misery and I plague to be a good daughter, girlfriend, wife, daughter in law, mother (in the future).

xoxo

Adriana

I wish I have more freedom from myself

I am so frustrated today. It has been long and tiring day. Long as in I done a lot of things today. But it is rewarding and tiring as in I have been waiting for the doses of love each day and it does not appear today. I am worried and worried and in the end I just decided to go out and take a jog. I feel much better. But after hearing a brief description on why the doses of love does not appear today, it just gone disappear again! And now I am stranded in a love-less situation where I hate. I wish I had not given myself too much to achieve the doses of love each day. I have limit my movement on what I could do on certain time and what not. I wish I had put myself in first priority. It is not an act of selfishness, but it is an act of self-love. My dad teach me today, he went thru an incident whereby he was asked, "who do you love the most?" He answered,"my wife". well to all of us, that's what we usually do. Love the others more and that's what my dad do. He care for all of us more than he cared for himself. Well, I am going to care for myself and think about the things that I wanted to do, instead of worrying little things in my life that is not perfect and worrying about the others.

I love to watch TV series, and I just finish watching The City season 1. I am totally addicted to it. And watching Whitney working in DVF, my life is so boring. I wish I had more challenges in life. It seems that my life is pretty predictable, I want excitement! Its time to evaluate myself and plan what I wanted to do in life and not wait and let others to plan for you.

Lets continue watching The City after show and lets get inspiration there.

XOXO

Adriana

YSL beauty secrets with HELLO! magazine

Summer Sale!

Its time to clean up some of the stuff that has been clattering the store rooms for quite sometime to make ways for new stuff second half of the year. So, I am selling those stuff away with a very reasonable price! All the below rate is inclusive postage in west Malaysia. Prices are negotiable if purchase more than 2 items. More to come! Interested? Email me at: chelsiayip@gmail.com

True love (and other Lies) - Whitney Gaskell (RM 15)

Travel write Clair has kissed enough frogs (and snakes and toads) to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that Fate, Love at First Sight and "The One" do not exist.

So when she ends up sitting next to secy American ex-pat Jack, on a flight from New York to London and he asks her out, she figures there must be a catch. Or maybe after years of dating disasters and bozo boyfriends, Claire has finally met the man of her dreams. But just as she's about to start believing in destiny, Claire discovers that someone else got to Jack first, and she can't quite believe who it is.....

A fabulous, feisty romance about how fickle a friend can be....

The kept Woman - Susan Donovan (RM 15)

What if a total stranger offered you everything you ever wanted - almost?

Ever since Samantha's husband ran out on her and their kids she's been working to clear the humungous debt he left behind, so it's time she had a lucky break. What she's not expecting is for that break to be Jack Tolliver, former governor of Indiana and the biggest womaniser in the state. He's running for the senate and needs a nice, respectable woman by his handsome side to help clean up his image.

So Sam accepts a bizarre business proposal - a fake engagement. All she has to do is play happy families until Jake's elected and then she'll get a big fat cheque and a lifestyle to die for. It's simple. unitl, that is, the kiss occurs. That knee-trembling, electric kiss that Sam and jack share. But that's just for show.....right?

The Chalet Girl by Kate Lace (RM 15)

Charlet girl Millie Braythorpe should be in heaven. But thanks to four months of endless bed-making and cooking for guest, her "glamorous" ski seasion feels like hell. The only thing she looks forward to these days is her nightly gig singing in a little French bar. The handsome troublemaker Luke comes to stay at her chalet, and Millie falls head over heals in love. But is Luke to be trusted, or is her Alpine romance destined to end in wipeout?

Smart vs Pretty - Valerie Frankel (RM 15)

Having a sister autometically entitles you to a lifetime of sibling rivalry - especially if one of you are smart and the other pretty. But Francesca Greenfield (the smart one) and he sister Amanda (the pretty one) are going to have to put their differences aside. The family business is under treat and, unless they can get more customers through the door of their coffee shop, they're going to lose everything. But with love, lust and a "Mr Coffee of the week" competition causing stir, it's not going to be easy.

One Night stand - Julie Cohen (RM 15)

Eleanor Connor has written lots of steamy novels, but sadly her own life is more mundane. In fact, the nearest she's come to passion for ages is having to listen through the thin walls of her house as friends and neighbour Hugh seduces an endless stream of women.

But then Eleanor has a one-night fling of her own, waking up alone, repentant, and she later realises, pregnant. Desperate to find her missing lover, if only to tell him he;s going to be a father, she enlists Hugh to help her search. But should she be looking closer to home to find out what it is she really needs?

He Loves Lucy - Susan Donavan (RM 15)

Most women would KILL to have round the clock access to personal trainer / demi-god Theo Redmond. But Lucy Cunningham's starting to wish she'd never laid eyes on him!

When marketing exec Lucy pitched the idea of a reality TV show in which Theo took a "fitness-challenged" woman, and turn her from flabby to fabulous, she wasn't planning on being the star. But then, she reasons, she could stand to lose a few pounds, only not with the whole of Miami and gorgeous Theo watching. But then again for every pound she loses she gains big bucks....

As Lucy sweats her way into a whole new life, things start to heat up between her and Theo. But what can a chocoholic and a gym bunny possibly have in common? Or could Lucy and Theo be about to discover that appearances can be deceptive - and true love lies somewhere pizza

Confessions of an air hostess - Marisa Mackle (RM 15)

Air hostess Annie's life takes a serious nosedive after her boyfriend dumps her (by text) and takes off with a thousand pounds of her money.

But before she has time to do what she really wants (lock herself away with tears and a jumbo tub of ice-cream), she has a planeful of passengers to cajole into good behaviour So it's on with the fake tan (and the fake smile) and off to work as usual. Whis is just as well, really. Because you never know, the departure of Mr Wrong could mean the arrival of Mr Right.....Couldn't it?

Chinese Whispers - Marisa Mackle (RM 15)

Is it true Fiona's been playing around with best mate Ellie's new beau?

Rumour is a terrible thing. And Fiona Lemon knows that being caught half-naked with Connor does not look good. But Ellie's gone before she can explain what really happened! And now Fiona's job as a gossip columnist isn't helping her reputation much either - it seems being 'creative' with the truth is par for the course in the magazine world.

Then along comes pretty, rootless Bunny Maguire, and Fiona sees a way for Bunny to help her solve all her problems at once. But life, love and all the lies are just about to be taken to a whole new level - here's to hoping the truth will finally out ....

Clarins - Smoothing body scrub with bamboo powders (RM 35)

Refines and softens body skin by removing impurities and dead surface skin cells. An essential first step in any successful body care programme because it helps facilitate product absorption thereby enhancing product performance. By stimulating cellular renewal, it helps minimize the appearance of spongy skin and prevent it from setting in. Skin is more resistant, firmer and soft to the touch.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 30ml / 1.04 o.z

Clarins - High Definition Body Lift (RM 200)

A sculpting body lotion.What it is formulated to do: Clarins High Definition Body Lift redefines the hips and thighs, minimizing the appearance of cellulite. Contour your curves with this treatment's dual toning and smoothing action for a smooth, stunning, sexy silhouette.What else you need to know:This formula's refreshing cream-gel texture contains active microspheres that melt into the skin upon contact, creating a lovely feeling of lightness and va-va-voom-worthy results.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 200ml / 7.0 o.z

Clarins Invigorating Fragrance (RM 20)

Clarins Invigorating Fragrance

Vitality Freshness Firmness Natural Spray

"Clarins, the Specialist in skin care, has combined the fragrance and treatment benefits of plant extracts to create Eau Dynamisante. The bouquet of citrus, chypre and delicate woody notes excude a compelling yet subtle freshness. The aromatic plant extracts deliver moisturizing, soothing, firming and revitalizing benefits which are reinforced by the action of non-fragrant plants. An exhilarating experience, Eau Dynamisante ensures complete and effective body care"

New in retail box

Size: 30 ml / 1 Fl oz

Clarins Huile "Tonic" Body Treatment Oil (RM 35)

Helps firm and avoid skin slackening. 100 % natural plant extracts and aromatic essential oils, "Tonic" Oil is particularly recommended to help prevent stretch marks during pregnancy and lack of firmness during weight loss.

Size: 30 ml / 1 fl oz

Clarins - Nature temptation eye palette & instant light (RM 100)

Satisfy all your desires for beautiful eyes with six eye shades in pure, soft colours, each embossed with a floral design. For a perfect make-up result every time.Eye colour palette - shade 01.

e 11.5g / 0.4 oz net wt.

With purchase of Nature temptation eye palette, you get instant light perfecting touch.

Make up Store Microshadow - viva (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - silk (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - scale (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - rusty (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - passion for fashion (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - pascal (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - moss (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - money talks (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - holiday (RM 45)

Make up Store Microshadow - A girls best friend (RM 45)

Make up Store Lipstick - Glimmer (RM 45)

Make up Store Lipstick - Citrus (RM 45)

Make up Store lips gloss - Puma (RM 45)

Make up Store lips gloss - Posh (RM 45)

Make up Store lips gloss - Orma (RM 45)

Make up Store lipgloss - pax (RM 45)

Make up Store cybershadow - Prestige (RM 45)

Make up Store Blush - Oh so fresh (RM 45)

Make up store is originally from Sweden. Its available in The Gardens & Pavilion

Lait Corporel Extra Pur Verveine body lotion - 30ml (RM 15)

Made with pure vegetable oils with softening and nourishing virtues are combined with moisturizing agents to prevent dryness and leave skin smooth. The fluid texture of this luxurious lotion is rapidly absorbed the the skin. Presented in the famous glass pump dispenser.

Small in size. Great for travelling.

Jean Paul Gaultier Classic perfume - 100ml (RM 200)

Top fragrance notes are anise, orange blossom and tangerine Middle notes are ginger, orchid and ylang-ylang Base notes are vanilla, musk and amber Senses are floral-oriental, fruity, sweet-Ambery.

Che Che Wishing Bear coin purse (RM 60)

Brand: Che Che New York

Material: Satin Beaded

Style: Coin Purse

Thierry Mugler Angel Sunessence Light Eau de toilette (RM 250)

Thierry Mugler has launched Angel Sunessence Eau de Toilette Légère and Alien Sunessence Eau de Toilette Légère, new limited edition summer versions of Thierry Mugler Angel (1992) and Thierry Mugler Alien (2005), respectively.

Angel Sunessence Eau de Toilette Légère

Under the splendour of the white light of the sun, the horizon quivers in a veil of silver-plated light…Angel seized all the pleasures of this dazzling light to create the Angel Sunessence collection.

The new scent is described as “delicious, floral and sensual”, and as “the original fragrance, [softened] with bergamot and an exotic floral-hibiscus accord”.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 50ml / 1.7 o.z

Anna Sui - Mascara Primer (RM 30)

Absolutely keeps lashes curling for hours Ensures a fuller-looking lashes with lasting color Incredibly gives lashes a lustrous look With flake-and-smudge-resistant Leaves eyes appear bigger & brighter

* a mascara base that improves the existing effects of mascara and keeps eyelashes perfectly curved

* light application feel with a waterproof formula

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 3.4g / 0.11 o.z

Anna Sui - Super Mascara DX Waterproof (RM 30)

Absolutely keeps lashes curling for hours Ensures a fuller-looking lashes with lasting color Incredibly gives lashes a lustrous look With flake-and-smudge-resistant Leaves eyes appear bigger & brighter

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 3.4g / 0.11 o.z

Dr. Andrew Weil Origins - Night Health Bedtime bath oil (RM 100)

√ 66% were measurably more relaxed after inhaling the Night Health™ aroma

This prelude to sleep is formulated with Dr. Weil’s clinically proven blend of soothing Chamomile, Lavender and Mandarin essential oils. Simply pour a splash into bathwater and sink in. Breathe deeply and allow the “sleepy scent” to help you unwind and let go of the day. After you step out of the tub, your body temperature will fall naturally cuing your body and mind that it’s time for sleep.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 200ml / 6.7 o.z

Hidden Fantasy - Britney Spears Eau de parfum spray (RM 100)

A sweet nectar of sparkling citrus blossoms, succulent florals and mysterious musks shares a secret of warm sensuality that is impossible to hide.

Uninhibited Imagination

Powerful emotions are ignited with a burst of Sweet Orange and Tangerine that lie intimately alongside delicate Grapefruit Blossoms and French Flowering Verbena.

Coveted Secrets

Napolitano sweetness tempts you as the wild floralcy of Stargazer Lily and Sambac Jasmine is embellished with sensual Clove.

Serendipity

Your hidden fantasies come alive with an intriguing finish of Mexican Vanilla Bean, Jacaranda Wood and Fluid Sandalwood, enhanced with the radiance of Amber.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 50ml / 1.7 o.z

Clarins - Smoothing body scrub with bamboo powders (RM 35)

Refines and softens body skin by removing impurities and dead surface skin cells. An essential first step in any successful body care programme because it helps facilitate product absorption thereby enhancing product performance. By stimulating cellular renewal, it helps minimize the appearance of spongy skin and prevent it from setting in. Skin is more resistant, firmer and soft to the touch.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 30ml / 1.04 o.z

Clarins - High Definition Body Lift (RM 150)

A sculpting body lotion.What it is formulated to do:Clarins High Definition Body Lift redefines the hips and thighs, minimizing the appearance of cellulite. Contour your curves with this treatment's dual toning and smoothing action for a smooth, stunning, sexy silhouette.What else you need to know:This formula's refreshing cream-gel texture contains active microspheres that melt into the skin upon contact, creating a lovely feeling of lightness and va-va-voom-worthy results.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 200ml / 7.0 o.z

Davidoff Echo Woman - Soothing Deodorant Breeze (RM 70)

Provides effective protection against wetness & odor Incredibly helps glides on smoothly & comfortably Ensures a natural, long-lasting skincare treatment Lightweight formula offers quick-dry formula Suitable for all skin types Delicately scented

brand: Davidoff

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 100ml / 3.4 o.z

Moschino Funny - Eau de Toilette Natural Spray (RM 130)

A mischievous humorous fragrance with a touch of fantasy Contained in bottle adorned with a hear-shaped cap & w sewn-on button Delivers notes of floral bouquet with fruity accents Fresh spicy open of pink pepper Seville orange & red currant Luminous heart of jasmine peony violet & green tea Intense dry-down of amber cedar & musk

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 50ml / 1.7 o.z

Versace pour homme - Eau de Toilette Natural spray (RM 180)

The new fragrance for men created from essential notes of the Mediterranean. A classic yet surprisingly contemporary fragrance.

By Versace.

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 30ml / 1.0 o.z

Bvlgari Omnia Green Jade - Eau de Toilette (RM 70)

A spirt of fresh floral emotions A crisp floral ? green fragrance a watery and fresh green opening a heart dressed with a cascading white flower-fall a femine, sensual dry-down of light silky notes

Brand new. Packaging still intact.

Size: 5ml / 0.7 o.z